Deux: What I've Tasted of Desire

I need a haircut. I have an ingrown toenail I need looked at and an allergy appointment, the date of which they won't say. My family is in dire financial straits and the pressure is on to perform this fall at school and occupationally. I have a number of outside projects that aren't getting done for a variety of reasons.

I have few small pleasures in my life. An ice cold Coca-Cola. A Charlie Kaufman movie. Probably some other things I'm not recalling.

I haven't posted much this month. The month has been by-and-large uneventful. By that I mean, nothing has happened that's worth talking about. But last night, I was trying to get a shoot together, and things went wrong. Not as wrong as Melissa Neabel getting into a car accident, but sufficiently wrong nonetheless. So to try and salvage the night, I took Ryan Wheeler bowling. And since it was Saturday Night, we got the whole seizure-inducing Rock n Rowl experience. And now they've got new monitors that, during these sessions, play music videos. Now somewhere, between frames, and while watching the video for Atomic Kitten's version of "Ladies' Night," I thought about how ridiculous my life has gotten. I think somewhere along the way I lost my vision, my perspective on things. I've been so mired in whining about the little setbacks (as not-so-little as they actually may be,) that I can't enjoy things I should be able to.

Life is probably too complicated. I don't think it needs to be this way at all and as miserable as I may be, I don't think there's much that can be done, so why should I worry myself too much? I just don't want my friends, people I care about, to worry too much either. There's nothing wrong been done here, and we're all just people trying float along on the same insane liferaft.

Mom had somebody over to look at the spare room today. He didn't appear interested, according to her account of it. After going over to Dad's to feed the cat, Eric and I tried crossing the 16 Mile Creek, had a bit of a Tom Saywer moment there.

Anyway, those have been my thoughts for tonight. Hope someone out there was able to do something with them.

Keep on rockin'
-Scott