#7: Take my body home...

I'm sad.

I have absolutely no idea why, but all of a sudden this immense feeling of sadness washed over me, and I thought at that point that I should update my blog again. After I finished my part of the Drama project, I got worried because I haven't been able to reach Alyssa to confirm what's what in this project... and then I tried to busy my mind and get my mind off it, but that just led to the realization that I am a man with nothing.

I have no girl. No job. No prospects. No future. Nothing to occupy my time. Now that the play's over with and I'm between issues of Sewerman, I'm a man without anything to do; I go home after school, and I sit and just be, alone. Well, not too alone, Eric's always around. My movie project is alienating me from my family -- one of the last big shooting days happens to fall on a huge day of family gathering. But it's such a stupid concept in family gathering that I don't really mind. Except that during the last one - for Eric's birthday - I was at a Tech run for the play. It all comes full circle.

What do I have? Reviews to write - a position I grow more dissatisfied with weekly - a movie to make, and a budding addiction to over-the-counter generic acetaminophen - extra strength - to cope with my crippling back pain.

I don't have any satisfaction right no. In fact, if I was the type to make references to Rock n Roll songs of the 60's (and I am,) I might indeed say that I "can't get no satisfaction." I'm uncomfortable. I need somethin'. Damnit, I already wrote that song. Look for it on Interneta; it's there.

Tomorrow will be another school day. I'll go, I'll do some work on my movie (sorta) make and/or serve fries & burgers, and I'll do my presentation. I'll have an amusing time at lunch, fending off awkward situations hurled at me by Angela & Jess, someone will probably say something really funny/stupid, it'll probably be a pretty nice day... and then I'll come home and just be nothing. There's gotta be more to it than this.

Keep on Rockin' if you're out there
I'm Scott Williams. Goodnight.