#15: If not now, when?

"Is it your birthday?"

Peoples' responses to it being your birthday sometimes vary, unexpectedly. Most of the time they'll say "Happy Birthday." Sometimes, they'll not believe you, as Doug did, and ask to see ID (then be humbled when your health card reads "1987-05-26.") Some people, like Anisah in conjunction with Sonya and Kathryn, will go out and fetch you a huge balloon, then tie it to your wrist. Others, such as Alyssa, will improvise a card that is more smashing than anything Hallmark ever churned out.

Had a terrific day. It reaffirmed my faith in humanity - which, to be frank, was waning. The balloon was a particularly pleasant surprise. I should've suspected by Anisah's reaction when she found out, "it's your birthday? We should do something special." I'm glad it wasn't a cake. To be honest, I get enough cake. No, more than enough - it's a running gag around here that I "hate cake." I don't hate cake, but I get sick of it - literally nauseous at the thought of consuming - by the time my birthday rolls around, since I get so much of it in May. Anyway, I'm relieved that they didn't get me a cake, since Barrett & Hilary covered that in rehearsal, by whipping out a big ole "Scott" cake.

Suffice it to say, at least for now, I don't feel like I don't matter. And as aware as I am that that's a double negative, I don't feel like that's of any importance.

"Half-Past: The Motion Picture" is looking like a go. I sat downs to write the first scene today and it all just spilled right out. Even though I've done enough work on "Work in Progress" to affirm my rate of work, (not to mention the three-day marathon that was "Murder in the Wings,") I was amazed at how immediately it all came out, and how high it was in quality. Well, I know I'm not exactly impartial, but I feel like I can judge when something I've written is shit, and this is not shit. The film begins with a conversation between Mark and Perry - the subject matter is unimportant. That's what I like about writing a film - you can just write it, you don't need to be mindful of keeping the stagecraft going, bogging it down in exposition, or even troubling your actors with long diatribes. Film is a superior medium to stage in that it allows for better visual storytelling. I've got at least 3 people onboard. I'm nervous about talking a few others, because we don't talk much anymore. And all the while, I've got a few new roles I need to fill (and a couple, to be perfectly honest, to recast.)

But enough of that.

I'm worried about spreading myself thin. That's why I'm taking it easy on writing until exams. I've got schoolwork to focus on, after all.

Well, that's my life today. Keep on rockin' all out there
-S.A. Williams